Pesha

 

Jesus tells me
turn the other cheek
that since i am strong
i should protect the weak and meak
but what about when they bruise both sides?
hit me when i was hurting
threw me down stairs
& buried me alive?
leaving me with a cold stare
cupboards bare
how is that fair?
& what is worse they claim to be christians
seems to be a fiction
in my mind
it causes more than friction
a schism
from these scandals and vandals
i am a christian soldier
but i am growing older and colder
my plan was
to let my revenge be my success
as my cup overflows to excess
it’s hard not to strike a blow
against those who transgress
Doesn’t the book talk about that too?
They called it “pesha”
When people do something
wrong even though
they know better…
when i have beef
i pour on the cheddar
but you was wifey once
we was supposed to be forever
We kinda like Michael and Kate
To become the don
I had to push harder
Godfather
Goodfella
i walk through Casino’s like nino
New Jack
hold the crack
Extra cheese
Cool breeze
Palm trees
No time for lawyer fees
All i am left with is memories
of us rustling leaves
Turned out you aligned yourself
with a den of thieves
Pedophile crocodiles
Do you even know what you allowed?
Panda Eyes (POEM NOW UNPUBLISHED CONTENT STRICKEN)
exposed your lies…
i know in my heart what i must do
There is no more try

No Recess 2023

 

i think i'm dumb
the weed's too strong now
i keep coughing up my lungs
discipline problem
sucking my thumb
licking my fingers
shaking my bum
twerking
tweaking
seeking
teen spirit
beeper keep beeping
she's wet as a lake
i keep leaking...
no recess
no days off
no pretense
no plan
no preset
the great reset
i grew to detest
how can we compete
if there is no contest
how can a human feel complete
with no congress
appearances can be deceiving
objects in the mirror
may be closer than they are appearing
love myself better...
you know you're right
will you be there tonight?
at the dance?
right...
i was thinking of wearing this one skirt
and that tube top you like...
monkey see monkey do...
i don't mind...
i know y...
i've got a new coat of paint
a few found distaste
for those that placate, hate, and betray...
what do i do...
with all this anger and rage?
break my rusty cage
hatred keeps me alive
contrived
all these pop cliche's and sayings...
sometimes even the parrot gets tired...
bird on a wire
don't use the milk
it's expired
pennyroil tea
put a kettle on
give me a lighter...
so i can get higher...
i'm so lucky to have met you...
you embody everything i had grown to desire
this fire
that was fast
come get your cup
fill er up...
i will drain your last
vampire
trying to get rid of this spare tire
stay away from 6 packs
blue ribbon
still sinning
big bear
cold stares
it's too hot in the kitchen
don't go in there...
don't stand near me
the children shouldn't see or hear this
funny enough
after awhile the police grew to fear me
instead of trailing
they would turn off
instead of cuffing me
they began to hold open doors...
payoffs?
balling hard like it's the playoffs
opps stay soft
i'm pumping iron
handy with the steel
i hear sirens
oh it's for someone else
better you than me...
just how i feel...
people are often surprised
by just how much i keep it real
so many lies i surmised
i know the deal
"i wanted more than i could steal..."
the art of the trap
you wasn't sleepy
but they made you take a nap
over the power of the dollar
they'll make your momma hollar
2 weeks later im with your girl
she cruising w/me in sonja
no one's loyal anymore
so much so that it can't be ignored
it's always a factor
do your homework and finish your chores
i wish someone would
but nobody tries me yawn what a bore
these losers are snoozers
snore
That's why i still love you Kurt.
i studied all your words.
Such an expert.
i wonder about what happened.  
It makes my head hurt.
Thank you for being such an artist.
i sincerely wish you had not departed...

Peace, Love, Empathy.

Dedicated to the memory of Kurt Cobain