The Ball & Chain

 

Somehow i managed
to tear through a link
in order to break the tether
that bound you to me
once that metal was severed
i began to think
about the ways
you had trapped me

i felt like
i was your warrior
i was your king
you were my queen
i gave you a ring
but pretty soon after Addie
strange things happened
calls from other men
reporting sightings
and women taking pity on me
treating me nicely

so i resigned myself to planning
searching around and scanning
looking for an escape
and often asked God
why had he given me such a cruel fate
of the ball and chain
some say all the drugs and sex
drove me insane
i say it was keeping me from my kids
and all of that pain

no one ever believes
it will happen to them
like dying, or going to jail...
but the truth is...
more than half of marriages
have an unhappy end
and are destined to fail...
so from applying for our certificate
as wife and husband
we now went to law firms
and judges..
and fought over rubbish...

all these years later i fancied
myself free
only to find myself ready
to hang from a tree
on 09/28
my estranged daughter
just had to call me (?)
and explained
“they molested me daddy”

i managed to somehow
escape
but i still feel the pain
tormented by this shackle
that yet still remains
it is a leftover from
my ball and chain

The way my mind works
it is a pain so severe
my life is hard already
this just made things worse
really makes me wonder
about how they did this
was it just a plot to kill me
with my own kid…
or to get rid of a husband
that did what he did
using me as an unwitting accomplice
an evil killer?
is that what steffie is…😞?