Brother's Truck

You had a good truck
it was beat up like all heck
rusting but only cosmetic
To get it started you kinda had to crank it
Keep giving it gas
People would push it
Then you would turn the key
and shift it
Then you gave the steering wheel a turn
Kinda yanked it
You just got her stuck in the mud is all
By the time we pulled her out
i had dirt all over my overalls
Lesson learned i guess
even something old and beat up
and is still useful
might run into trouble
so you can't just put your feet up
wearing your fine clothes
counting your money
ignoring the plight of others
obsessed with making only
YOUR rainy days sunny
Family is supposed to mean
that when you need help you can
call on me
not this playing favorites
stuck on blood ties
smoking cigars & drinking booze...
endlessly...
i spent so many years shining shoes
had to pick myself up
by the straps of my boots
big military man
you taught me i need my own piece of
bottom land
only to leave me drowning
in the quicksand
just cause something broken
don't mean you can't fix it man...
get a grip
a hold of yourself
why did i care for irma
cause there was no one else
i now know you as cur
the runt of the litter
perhaps even worse than sister
say what you will about mimi
she never did make me lie for her
did she
you left your mother to die
in a bed that was pissy
so you could marry some prissy
no good 2 bit hissy
your son is a sissy
im living richly
No good deed goes unpunished
to save my mother
it made me hate my brother
and realize he was just another
piece of garbage no good motherfucker

Entrata Down Into the Rabbit Hole

 

why do i like jeanne?
well she likes pain
and you don't like pain
am i insane?
no
the world is insane
insane from the membrane
have you ever examined
the human fetus
or what they feed us?
oh lord big baby geezus
they will hang you
for your malfeasance
from a bridge
with bricks stuffed
in the pockets of your breeches
maaaaaaaaaan!
where is carmen?
off somewhere running a scam?
where is it this time?
Iran?
i suppose they already tried Afghanistan...
i imagine they will blow
a suitcase bomb in Manhattan...
and blame the Muslim man again...
all the world is a stage
and they staging everything that's happening
slim fast
skinny jeans
better yet it's a Mabeline
beauty queen
the fade is somewhere in between
dimensions seen and unseen
shhhh be quiet don't make a scene
we are at the event horizon
you will long for times
now only remembered
& bygone
Auntie M it's a twister
World is being swept up by a cyclone
The quickening
Same old sad song
but it's playing
much much faster
They even released a PSA
what to do in event of
a nuclear disaster
need to call your pastor
summon a priest
they getting ready to give us
the mark of the beast
it's a beast system
oh you was busy kissing?
you didn't see that
snake come hissing?
listen Linda you better listen
the beast is what they call their
computer system
and since it runs bare metal
you can't give it no exorcism
gotta pull the plug
but you better listen
they have fail-safes, redundancies,
& contingens
so you gotta push these cowards
out to sea
make them walk the plank
show no mercy
i don't know what they are honestly
could be demons or aliens
it's a toss up basically
but i'm going to lead the resistance
it's already been decided
so ain't no use in me
trying to hide it
i will never sell my soul
i'm not dead and i'm not 4 sale
uh oh feeling sick?
i guess i better bail
princess Loko said
"young man don't cum too quick"
but don't you be a snail
i got one on the line
i'm hoping it's a whale
gotta play for keeps now
cause we can't afford to fail
stop doing rails of ritalin
who do you think
you are kidding man
table top?
or another video one?
or maybe we could put together
a puzzle son
like who did 9-11
well it weren't no planes
that is plain
as a message sent from heaven
or as day you see
the videos were all cg
road runner physics
fantastic fallacies
sold as actualities
planes can't fly those speeds
at those air densities
nor does jet fuel and aluminum
have the scientific properties
to turn all that real estate property
to dust debris
steel girders de-molecularized
they pulled the original nose out shot
to protect their lies
are you gonna get a burger
with those fries?
yeah
i'll have mine supersized
they don't do that no more
it's ok
doesn't surprise me
many things got to be a bore
pale imitation of themselves
watered down and diluted
by these fiends that came from hell
or was it Venus
why you have a nice penis
i get that a lot
men are from mars
maybe it's true
Ye said the system is controlled
by Jews
maybe not maybe so
but there is one thing that i'll show
Apparently David Bateman
from Entrata was right
i ain't saying i am going defcon 3 alright
it's just how in the hell did he know?
that the jabs were poison from the get go?
did someone pull him to the side?
is that how it works once you have that type?
of big money and charge those fees...
i know sean you smoke too much trees
but i gotta question seriously
what did they tell him and did he
have to get on his knees
pledge to dark forces loyalty
play a role to claim and allege?
if that is so then off with his head...
 

I'm Sorry Ms. Nichols

Oh Tyre how did that happen to thee?
Ms. Nichols i am sincerely so sorry
how did those brothers beat your son
so mercilessly
ikhwan
i blame this society
ruled by the pentagram
& freemasonry
it doesn’t value life
& teaches complacency
so much so
that the paramedics ignored
your screams
Crying out for mama
no more fast driving
no more smoking skooma
PAUSE
cause i don’t use no commas
How is this young man dead
After running down a corner
He wasn’t wanted by the feds
Ya’ll had already run his plate
i heard what they said
this is such a disgrace
n for the ones that strive
to divide us
this is just great
cause they can point and say
that you were a victim of your
own kind
twisted fate
why must we kill each other
instead of love one another
in japan most police don’t even have guns
why? i wonder…
What’s worse they didn’t shoot him
they beat him down
s shaped nose?
Come on now…
n wasn’t he handcuffed?
why ya’ll need to beat him anyhow??!
i am absolutely disgusted and wish
it was the first
but the ghosts of Diallo & Garner
make this feel rehearsed
how many more young men
they gonna stuff in a hearse
We need to march in the streets
Tell the crowds not to disperse
Stop with this police militarization
this ain’t no video-game ain’t no play-station
This is real life & we need to stop all the hating
To the powers that be
We need to stop placating! ✊

Bigger Tomorrows

Was it fate
or perhaps destiny
that brought you to me?
i suppose in time we will see…

However do you want it
However do you need it

Fate is handed out by a divine force
Destiny implies your choices and actions
Determine your course
i figured now that we met
i should determine the source

However do you want it
However do you need it

You said you love
my way with words
My lips played music to ears
especially hers

However do you want it
However do you need it

Her soul talked to mine
across the divide
Over the internet
I made her wet to help her decide

However do you want it
However do you need it

What we both long for
Is a forever love
Big tomorrows
To wash away past sorrows…

However do you want it
However do you need it

Now that i am
at the top of the block
These foolish games
i beg you to stop

However do you want it
However do you need it

The Hunger For More

It's really such a fascinating concept
One for which I had a lack of consciousness
What exactly is hunger anyway?
Why do I eat 3 meals spaced out in my day...
Is it truly for the economy?
To create a human focused on satisfaction?
That way they do not value empathy
Made to only chase reactions?
i found that i had been eating for comfort
Seeking hormone releases from my brain
Pleasure to dull all my mental pain
& anguish,
Coupled with a lack of activity
It caused my body to languish
Atrophy
At just the right time
A beautiful woman broke my heart
Ever being a positive person
I reasoned it was time for a new start
A reassessment of my soul, mind, and body
A perfect time to build a new me!
Oddly i began to find junk food revolting
Patting my belly wishing it would not be
There...
& that i could fit smaller sexier underwear
& oh yes there were tears!
Old familiar fears!
Lamentations over one too many beers...
i pondered our ancestors
Come now.
How could one eat 3 times a day
While running from predators?
Stalking mammoths or hunting rabbits
It just couldn't be
They probably snacked on leaves, nuts, and berries
Grapes and other fruits
mixed with occasional protein bursts
Wash, rinse, repeat, in a loop
The modern human was engineered ya see
To hunger for more constantly
They used all the weapons at their disposal
Music, magazines, comic books, and t.v.
Fashion, the silver screen, smart phones, and CDs
To create a world where many succumb to gluttony
All while they charged various fees

A Tragic Sez Ami

Sunny days
Chasing the clouds away
Funny thing
You didn’t care about me anyway…
Can you tell me how to get
How to get to (NAME STRICKEN WILL NOT BE HONORED IN MY POETRY) house?
i would stay quiet as a mouse
you wouldn’t even know i’m there
Like the people under the stairs
Just to see my angel’s hair
Not trying to give you a scare
But what you did was so unfair
That is why my stereo blares
Can you tell me how to get…
How to get to Stefanie’s house…
That’s right you changed your name…
With your sur you did the same…
i suppose some people just can’t seem to be proud
There are things they can’t say out loud…
It took me many, many, years
i cried many, many, tears
i overcame all of those fears
but it wasn’t easy you see…
Getting over you burying and replacing me
The truth is i'm not dead
Frankly it is apparent that it is YOU
Who is sick in the head
Pretending it was for the best
Because their eyes told me the truth
Now you have no such excuse
You allowed them to be abused in their youth
Denied me missing tooths
Helping with homework
Or reviewing photos from kissing booths
All to destroy me
But from all that i can easily see
Karma made you a casualty
Retired by 43…
Oh can you tell me how you do not see
That you have become a tragedy…

Rocksteady

 

"Beware the false motives of others"
Anyone can betray you
Why who i called mother wasn't even my mother...
The lessons of my life are astounding
i will exceed expectations
Till the crowd's cheers are resounding
The heart of a champion
In me an ancient heart beat still pounding
"I'd rather die for something than live for nothing"
Those words became my battle cry
Every time i failed i would wipe the sweat from my brow
& give it one more try
Why ask JUST why...
i keep 5 other loyal fighting men
Who, how, where, what, and when...
They would lead me to lands foreign
Pushing foreigns
Laying with foreigners
Exotic, intoxicating, enchanting ladies and liquors
Tastes and smells
Such memories i would never sell
i'm repping my hood and i'm repping it well
A long lost land
an often cursed
corner of hell
Spanish Harlem
A place I called the crucible
Real recognize Real
The truth has a certain ring to it
If you listen to it
It will tell
You who to trust
& who was destined to fail
Meant for greatness
I brushed off your betrayals
Yo no soy marinero
Yo soy capitan
Wha happen?
You didn't think i could right my ship?
Not only have i done just that...
Steady as she goes
I got this down pat...
Now no one can take my freedom from me...
i confidently and boldly sail the seas!

You Have To Want It More

 

What changed me was
"I wanted more than I could steal.."
So I had to throw away
All those old ways
Learn smarter ways
To increase my pay
Find new hideaways
Traded hot CO-Ds
For cold criminals
Stopped thinking out loud
Throwing subliminals
The weed got better
As I increased my cheddar
Began bumping into bed wetters
Happy I got double rooms
You made a mess!
I can't clean THAT with a broom...
The mop don't help
You gonna make me have to use my belt...
Discipline
If you like doing it..
What fun is it then?
Gotta have some skin in the game
Be prepared to feel some pain
Create your very own crazy train
Except you are the conductor
The composer and the engineer
Gotta check the cars from the front to the rear...
Lest you derail
& cause all your plans to fail
Gotta be prepared for bad weather
Remember
Birds of a feather flock together...
My advice is to not make bonds
You are not prepared to sever...
The key is to learn how to fly
Once you can do that as a person
You can kiss all your troubles goodbye...

Digital Glow

 

They told me to take the vaccine
but i didn't know
that after they jabbed me
i would start to glow
under the black light
long cold dark nights
i am a knight errant
but if they gave me a mark
i would not want to wear it
it's the beast
and it's the kind of dirt
you can't dig out your cleats
heart attacks
knocking grown young men
off their feet?
something is shaking the system
barbarians at the gate
the titanic is sinking
run to the lifeboats
don't wait!
it's far too late!
Run for your lives
out come the long knives...
nights of broken glass
Kristallnacht
fascist brown shirts
the truth hurts
Ye lost hundreds of M's
and a baby B trying
to tell U the truth through the wire
Ya'll don't see
so i gotta speak emoji 🙄
but now it's getting worse!
Across the world now
they telling crowds to disperse
Afraid that if the people unite
they might form a plan
that makes the system work
and sets things right!
The revolution will not be televised
the idiot box is only good
to sell you things
and tell you lies
Just give me a whopper
hold the fries
fast food =
bad dude
Or maybe if you need it
May i offer a Quaalude
Hey man...
Yo dude...
Why you letting them play you for such a fool!
THE SYSTEM BROKEN
WE NEED SOME TOOLS
Is it CHRISTmas or Yuletide
between the lines
let me show you
where the truth hides
under the covers
i have discovered
such secrets and wonders
Who made the slur anyway?
Just how old is the letter "J'
Why are there "hours" in a day
AMUN RA when you pray
Why did i see the eye of horus
when i would pay
using "their" currency
But now everything is DIGITAL
situation getting CRITICAL
you lost in the PHYSICAL
the lost need to find themselves in the SPIRITual
FAITH can move mountains
that's why i am shouting
cause i believe in you
and i know the evil that these demons do
and i been there
we all may a catch
a case or two
When you reach the safe-house
Jiggle the knob with the code
Turn twice
So we know it's not you know who...
it's a movement not a vice
to the trainings U must stay true
otherwise they will kill you if they find you
it's a New World Order and it
knows no borders
it's for sean
so you know you can't mess up when you make my order...
more like an edict
but i cannot predict
our future
it's more like i feel it
i feel the rhythm and all that ancient wisdom
from our ancestors and let me tell you
i been listening
having visions and making decisions
cause ya'll too loose
ya'll done bout let them cook our goose!
but i been down since pac played in JUICE
so if i didn't stand up i would have no excuse
so i will speak out and fight back
no retreat no surrender no truce
bury my heart at wounded knee
or ruby ridge
below a big oak tree
tell them tales and spread my legacy
explain that i was once blind too!
but that i grew to see!
that all our people must be set free!

Family Ties

 

Family ties
capricious lies
magic numbers
you can't count hexadecimaclly?
oh brother!
what a blunder.
i am out to cut the junkie
and lose the blubber
still must say i am a funny mother fucker...
funky mothertrucker
i got some of my swag from you
learned the art of the con
from peeling the layers behind you
i still remember when you let
me whip that dodge intrepid
i had just got my license i hadn't expected it
i think you only let me push it once
cause you was jealous of how i repped it
but you can't front
i brought it back
without a scratch
i pumped wu beats back then
and still to this day
i still smoke chocolate and kush
tho i prefer the haze
still crazy in these last dayz
mi vida loca till they kill me
and even when they lock me in a cage
sis look down on me and bless my ways
i know we didn't see eye to eye
but i will honor your memory
i remember walking around the barrio
and at first they knew me as
"her younger brother..."
then harlem discovered i was my own sorta wonder
i would hear stories about you
skipping out on school
cause you wanted to escape harlem
i had the same feelings and the same problem
you moved halfway around the world
and became a marine
i guess you had to live out your dreams...
man in that dress uniform you looked so mean
by analyzing you i learned how to make cream
you was an ill grifter
always had me thinking
i remember when i used to admire martin, jack, and lincoln
but after i understood you
i was pushing brand new lincolns
& stacking benjis
pero mi hermana tu no me gustaba por la marijuana
and after momma had her stroke you didn't wanna...
help out no more
by then i was pushing the throttle
pressing the pedal to the floor
i discovered your embezzlement
i was wondering where all the money went
it's all gravy
i'm going to pay that debt baby
you should have seen how wet stef get
all those years ago
in the i n t r e p i d
& besides what i learned about
extortion and crime
my method
from spending the time
engrossed in your lines, life, and likes...
new fast rides
stylish fly clothes
just how to perfect the roles...
poa's and doa's
life is a stage on which we all play
mimi was a playa from a long forgotten era
ever the trendsetter
she played a cop, a robber, and even a toy soldier...
whatever paid the bills at various times
all the while making more money and committing
various frauds and crimes...
i learned you so well
it really is funny
all i was doing was following the money
the checks that bounced...
and dummy email accounts
it was all such a slithery route
but very enlightening
frankly a bit frightening
all of the siphoning
just to get a third house?
meanwhile i stayed quiet as a mouse
watching the rats
for moms i went beyond the mat
i think she got some coasters
mom nearly burned down the house with the toaster
and someone else tried to steal a different vacuum cleaner
sadly i thought she was a keeper
hold on my beeper keep beeping
i guess now you are gone
but to me your spirit keeps speaking...

Ivory Lies

So what made you look down
from that ivory tower
did you see me gaining power
hour by hour
i know our relations
they did sour
i can no longer knock on your door...
and we do not talk
anymore...
but i once served you
and ruled by your side
till you became corrupted
and you lied and lied
i still honor you as a queen
that i never denied
it's just your cruelty knew no bounds
& cause of it i have cried
& cried...
oh won't you come down and honor me?
Show me some laughter
a bit of good humor
and dispel all these rumors?
and correct these fallacies?
Why must you turn my life
into a tragedy?
Leaving me alone with my malady?
It's a sad tale ya see...
I gaze at your tower and I wonder why
was it worth all i suffered
for you to not even try
to right all these wrongs
that have been grievances for so long
but here i am at its base
still singing these same old sad songs...

Babylon Jane

johnny come lately?
naw
johnny never came…
jane went insane…
she ran so far away…
she even changed her name…
both the first and the sur…
left me for some cur…
i imagine now he lavishes her with gifts
buys her diamonds, pearls, & furs…
so much so that jane forsook her soul
no christmas with family for me…
just the witch and lumps of coal
try and walk a mile in my shoes
had me so poor
i had holes in my soles
but my soul remained intact
i am somewhat damaged by your attacks
but mostly good
learned how to live in the country
but i'm still hood
you didn’t raise my chillun like you should
now i gotta be a villain
i bet you wish i would
just to play pity
and all those MIND games
i am what was left
i lay beneath the remains
blinded by the propaganda of the west
weak to dogs who suckle your chest
Babylon the great whore
you babble on
nothing exceptional
just a bore
my heart would not get stirred
tormented by your snores
like a leper
stigma from sores
plain jane begged me in vain
wish i had a weather vane
for all of those seasons
and the reasons
for the visits that never came

Panda Eyes

if you want to know
what gave away
all of your lies
it was their panda eyes
all i did was take old
pictures and sit them
side by side
made me wish
i had not
even tried
all i could do was
sit back and sigh
once having realized
for years i cried n cried...
no one knows
how i feel inside
but at least i don’t
feel all that guilt
that you try to hide
whatever is done
in the dark
will one day
come to the light
guess it was the
same thing i had gone through
God made us the same
i am just like you
the sicks ones couldn’t
keep their hands off me too
they even extorted me
i suppose i should sue
ima let God sort em out
my faith in him rings true…

Sologamy

 

the chair is against the wall
no more kids in the hall
no more pushing swings
no more exchanging rings
the store registers don’t ching
just self checkout
but i already checked out
i try to check the math
but their answers
don’t check out
i know the right ain’t right either
i feel left out
over run
come undone
no more time in the sun
no more nights of fun
am i the only one?
obviously not
how can you feel love
tied in knots
much more than barriers
worse than a moat
you ruined my breakfast
made me burn my toast
i still woofed it down
but it hurt my throat
can someone turn me from frog to prince?
with just a simple kiss?
probably not
so there is no point to miss…
a maiden that does not exist
and never has…
still looking for my better half
sologamy
maybe
i should just marry me
have a big ceremony
but only invite myself
should i wear a dress?
my hair is always such a mess…
or don a veil?
oh i mustn’t do that…
it would only remind me of your betrayals…
be a man!
wear a suit…
that tie and those laces…
fit me like a noose…
what would be my vows?
sean i promise to love and cherish myself
well at least for now…
short attention span theater
special double feature
a type of Frankenstein
mixed with the elephant man
what a vile hideous creature…
well at least i'm not a leecher!
that might be true
but you are lost
and none will seek ya…
is there a point to carry on
thanks to the shots that make one glow
i dare not travel
no more carry-ons
things were simpler when i played with my crayons
lipstick smears
mascara runs
perfume wafts
i miss your embrace in my once happy arms
i long for your charms
i should not have caused you such harm.

Hide & Seek

 

no free lunches
no easy rides
no where to run
no place to hide

olly olly oxen free
sean why do you run from me?

there is no more “base”
no such thing as “safe”
or effective
the truth became subjective

olly olly oxen free
sean come out! can’t you see?

one of my favorite games
hide and seek
but for those hunting me
i dare not peek

olly olly oxen free
sean are you behind that big oak tree?

for a time i managed to get away
had a second childhood
during which i played
only for it to end this way…

olly olly oxen free
Aha!  I found you! No more running!
No more games!

i suppose it’s off to “camp” i’ll go…
either that or die a death real, real, slow…
or i could go out in a blaze of glory…
or sell my soul and die of worry…
heartbroken with regret
such a sad story.